almost 6 months!

i swear i look and feel like im about to pop!

we cant wait to meet you Paizlee!

and of course my gorgious hallie! she loves pics!

Its a GIRL!

So excited my little life saver is another precious girl! I'm the luckiest girl to have 2 little dolls to dress up! Hallies excited to have a "gril" we can't wait to meet you! PAIZLEE LIN!!

***Hallie is doing great! she has really turned into a little girl instead of a baby the past few months! She at the stage where she is asking questions i dont even know the answer to! She i so smart saying things that just shock everyone!! We think she got some of her brains from her uncle Austin! She starts school in august :(( it makes me so sad she is all grown up! She is such a sweet girl she always makes sure mommys okay if im busy she asks if i need help, if im laying down she says "mommy you can have a break relax!" She loves to play dress up, dance, sing, loves puzzles and coloring! She is the sweetest thing in the whole world!

Silly Girls

"together forever, and no matter what"

A big thank you!

As most of you know its been a hard couple weeks for me...but the good news is I'm all better..the surgery was a success. Im so blessed and lucky I we found the cancer so early. I would like to thank everyone who truly "loves" me. I believe the fasting and the prayers helped me so much...I appreciate all the love and support everyone gave me. I'm so lucky and blessed all the people that love me and have been by my side. I'm so busy with work I don't have a lot of time to just thank everyone. Its a.big eye opener what this life's all about. *hugs and kisses* have a very happy Valentine's day!

~So ThankFul~

Its Thanksgiving! This year I have definitely realized who and what i am thankful for. The #1 people who stick by my side through all my mistakes, trials, and hardships, My family. I am so blessed for my parents they are always there to help me and when I'm having a hard time they are always my shoulder to cry on. I'm so thankful for my sister, her husband Brent, and my little niece London, My sister is such an example to me, i look up to her so much, and Brent is such a cute daddy always there to help my sister and after raising Hallie alone i really appreciate men like that. Austin is such an amazing kid, so smart! he could get into any college he wants, hes so good at staying away from things hes not supposed to do. and kaden he is such a fun kid and reminds me so much of myself. And my Hallie girl i am so blessed she was sent to me, every time i look at her i become a better person, the person i want to be, she has made me so strong and independent i wouldn't be who i am without my baby girl...I am so blessed and so thankful to have such a wonderful family, a job that works perfect with being a mommy, and everything i could ever ask for. Thank you to everyone for sticking by my side this year. I love you and i am truly thankful for you.

3 years old :(

The Love Of My Life

3 years ago was the best day of my life. I am such a lucky and proud mommy to have been blessed with such a smart, sassy, loving little girl. She is the best thing that has ever happend to me. She acts like she 15 and even has the attitude she will never let anyone mess with her! She has me wrapped around her little finger along with her gram, papa, and all of her uncles. I realized after her birthday her closset is verrry full! her shoe rack has no room! and her playroom is packed!! And its not even christmas yet! but she deserves ever bit of it! I love you Hallie Nicole Ricks!

Halloween!

This year was a blast because hallie new what halloween was! she was the cutest little pirate ive ever seen! she totally was not her outgoing self tho! she would put her basket by the door and run away. she wouldnt even say trick or treat! i guess her mommy has taught her right not to talk to strangers!

your 2 favorite girls :)

Life is great!!! I am now currently only working 4 nights a week over night at a nursing home. so i have soooo much more time with my hallie. We are loving our new house hoping to get the back yard all finished this winter :). Everyone tells me hallie is the smartest 2 year old they have ever met. she sings full songs! Holds full conversations! I am loving this stage. I am missing the little sweet baby she use to be that didnt talk or go try and make her own food haha. Now she is just like her mommy very independent and silly all the time. She is the best thing that ever happend to me she changed me so much and made me realize what life is really about :). I love you Hallie Nicole.

BEST FRIENDS???

THEY WILL BE FRIENDS NO MATTER WHAT!

In these pics they are getting along but i have to admit Hallie and Lilly are more like sisters. They fight over everything!!! Even when they are not together Hallie will do something she is not suposed to and she will say " Nilly did it!!" Maybe its a girl thing!!! it just brings back memories of me and my best girlfriends when i was little!

miss I.N.D.E.P.E.N.D.E.N.T

These days my life consists of work, working out and potty training. She is doing very well going in the big girl potty. I wish i could just keep her small. Im scared when she gets bigger she will want to hang out with friends all the time. I dont wanna lose my best friend. :( Hallie is at the stage where she does EVERYTHING HERSELF. Shes a little like her mom!!! half the time her clothes are on backwards because she throws a fit when i try to help her. Shoes are on the wrong feet. pantys on backwards!!! I am realizing how much patience my parents had to have for me. i just pray she doesnt put me through whatr i put my parents through.

Lady Antebellum - Ready To Love Again w/ lyrics

this song has touched me more than any other song ever has. Music speaks louder than words...and if i could sing i would sing this song..Its like how my heart feels...I love Lady A so much

Terrible twos!!!

They say your child will end up being 10 times worse than you were...Im starting to believe that is coming true :(. I can honestly say this is the hardest stage i've yet to accomplish as a mother. Everything is NO, I dont want that. I cant seem to please her. When i give her food all she wants is candy, when i say bath she says NO bath, When im watching a movie she says NO I want barney. Tantrums for no reason. Im stuck I have no idea what to do with her. So on my next 2 days off im gonna try and lay down the law and show her whos boss. I hate letting her cry but i guess she cant always get her way... All I can say is im in for it, wish me luck!

~2011~

I am up way past my 8:00 bed time so i decided to write. I've been thinking about how much I've learned about myself this past year 2010 was a great Learning year for me. I learned not to depend on anyone but my family. Ive learned not to trust anyone but myself. Im the only person who can give myslef what i truly want in life. I want to give my little girl the best life possible. I will never settle for less or let anyone stop me again. This year im going to focus on ME and my DAUGHTER. We may be small but we are a FAMILY. Sometimes I wonder how people juggle having a husband and 4 kids. When i can barley juggle Hallie and Work, and Bills of course. Why do people get married when it means focusing on one other person besides there child. Not to sound negative but why would you put a man before your kid, how could you love a man more than your kid. I guess im just not ready. My mom tells me when i find "the one" they wont just seem like a burden on my shoulder. For me even having to text a boyfriend during the day is pathetic, sorry guys i just dont have time to worry about what you are doing when i dont even have my whole life planned out..haha i know my thoughts are bizaire. I use to always say "when i get married". but forget that i am making all my wildest dreams come true without a husband without a boyfriend. Go back to school, get a house, move far far away from arizona people. Except for the few i love. so thankful for my amazing best friends and my wonderful family, and most of all my biggest blessing HALLIE NICOLE RICKS!

November 2nd 2010

My little Hallie just Turned 2. It was such a fun day for us...but so sad for me, i cant believe 2 years ago i was holding my precious little angel in my arms. Now she is sassy and spunky as can be. Im so blessed to have her in my life, its amazing how much my life has changed in the past 3 years because of her. She has changed me into such a stron woman, without her I would be lost in this crazy world. It just helps you believe in God even more. Hallie is now talking so much...yesterday she told Grandma she was "pissin her off." She has such a sweet, loving personality, I love you Hallie Nicole Ricks!

*OLD LOVE*

I havent blogged in so long! its amazing how time flys by...I have started new job working as a caregiver at the same retirment home i have worked at for almost 3 years. I decided i needed to start blogging again after i saw one of my favorite residents pass away this week. Old love is so much cuter than young love. This couple had been married for 75 years. I cant imagine being with someone this long. They loved eachother more than anything in the world. I witnessed the most precious thing i have ever seen, He had been in bed for the past 5 days asleep dying peaceful. He had been laying in bed breathing with his eyes closed and his mouth wide , he hadnt moved in 5 days, i was in there talking to him holding his hand, when his wife walked in. she was having a veryhrd time believing her husband was dying. Finally this day she had faith that she was going to be okay, she told him to go be with heavenly father on the other side and she would be right behing him, she told him she loved him and she wanted him to feel better, she leaned her face down to kiss him he closed his mouth and puckered his lips for the first time in a week, he opened his eyes also looked at her, then he passed away...i was standing in the room. I l0ve my job because of this. it may be hard for some people but i think its amazing. i have been taught my whole life that we will all be together again and i know that she will be with her husband. I love old people. old love is so beautiful. i use to think young love was cute but i cant wait to find the man i will spend the rest of my life with.

Hallie is 2 weeks old! these 2 weeks have gone by so fast!! She is growing so fast...We had her two week check up this week and she's already 10 pounds. She is so spoiled she crys whenever anyone sets her down ALREADY! Everyone loves her sooo much...but not as much as me... I could never imagine my life without her.

2 weeks old

Hallie

My Little princess finally arrived on november 1st she was 8 pounds 13 ounces 21 1/2 inches long... She is the biggest blessing in my life. I never imagined i could love someone so much...

Sleeping beauty

Hallie